Never blame circumstances for your condition, you yourself are responsible for what you go through. If someone's treating you bad, it's your fault not theirs. If you are not satisfied with your life, It's time you take a step and change it. Nobody will stand for you, nobody will help you, it's you who has to ultimately do something for yourself. Doesn't matter if you're hurting yourself for a small-time, imagine when things will change and your life will change, how happy you'll be... Let that imagination drive you and help you in your betterment. God is watching everything, always think that, as long as, there's someone in the sky to watch over me, nobody on earth can hurt me...